Remember her? Ginny Owens? From way back when…blind Christian music artist? Well, she wrote this song that has encouraged me SO much and God has brought it in and out of my life often throughout the last 6 years. I’ve been listening to it on repeat today…it says:
“The pathway is broken
and the signs are unclear.
And I don’t know the reason
why you brought me here.
But just because you love me
the way that you do
I’m gonna walk through the valley
if you want me to.
Because I’m not who I was
when I took my first step
and I’m clinging to the promise
you’re not through with me yet
So if all of these trials
bring me closer to you
then I will go through the fire
if you want me to.
It may not be the way I would have chosen
when you lead me through a world
that’s not my home
but you never said it would be easy
you only said I’d never go alone.
So when the whole world turns against me
and I’m all by myself
and I can’t hear you answer
my cries for help
I’ll remember the suffering
your love put You through
and I will go through the valley
if you want me to.”
Each season of life is unique, and change is always a little tough. (which reminds me of another favorite song called Seasons by Nicole Nordeman). There are days I love living in Costa Rica… when I get to see yet another fuchsia and orange sunset out my window or a take day trip to the beach, or when I drink the best pina colada I’ve had in my LIFE, or when I get to watch the face of teen prostitutes realize that someone does love them, or when I get to give a plate of rice and beans to a homeless man in the street…there are days that I love it here. But there are days when its hard. H-A-R-D…like when I feel to tired to take ANOTHER 6 hour bus ride on a hot, stuffy bus to the border, or when all I want is a Toffee Nut Latte from Starbucks (in a red cup) but there isn’t Starbucks, or when I can’t take a morning run without 50 men whistling, honking, or staring at me, or when community is scarce and family feels far away, or when a small box of wheat thins costs $8.
But then I remember, that like the song says, He didn’t tell us it would be easy but He promised to be right by my side. When I look back on other tough seasons of my life I can see so clearly how God used them to strip me bare, break me to pieces and make me anew…in His image. And I think that’s where I am right now…being broken. So thank you God for breaking me…ruin me for You.
And because every blog entry is better with a picture: